10 years asking why you 120 months missing you 3652 days of wishing you was still here 87660 of hours without you a whole lot of things have happened that you should still be here to see i can’t count how many times i’ve cried i try to think of the good times to get me through the shit days but each time i still come back to asking why you? why did you have to lose your battle? why do i have to live my life without my best friend? why did my children only get a short time with you? the questions will always have the same answer….life is cruel! dad you was one of a kind there will never be another you! i miss your dramas i miss your stories i miss your smirk and i miss your calls. i’m grateful for our time, i’m grateful for all you did and i’m grateful you was my dad. you was there at my wedding and i included you in the whole day & you made sure i knew you was there i heard your voice i felt your presence. it doesn’t get easier….i still get that kick in the stomach i still get that pain in my heart i still cry when i think of you at our last moments. i have regrets about our last hours but i know that you had regrets over the years we spent apart….everything i did for you i did out of love you asked to sleep and that’s what i told the nurses….my goodbye was never heard but i know you hear me when i have cried them to you after. i love you….i’ll always carry your memory on in my heart i will lock, you my dad, my rock ❤️ 10 years of loss and a lifetime ahead 💔 30.08.2012 3.03am